Day Four

Breakfast.

4 large pieces of watermelon, one apple.

Fantastic.

After my debauchery last night, I didn't lose any weight, but I also didn't gain any.

Must have been the grapefruit juice.

Today, we are planning to go to Lake Tobias with the kids.

Over lunchtime.

So, my first thought ... We get to eat out!

Jamie says...we take a cooler with...oh yes, you know...juice.

What a killjoy :)

Jamie, the Godfather of Juice

I've guessed what it was like to relapse after being clean, but tonight, I know for sure.

It sucks.

Here's the thing.

I am rebellious, always have been.

I do not like feeling like I HAVE to do something.

Even if it's something that's good for me, or that I want to do.

So... to stay within the confines of a juice fast means that I am being forced to abstain from anything other than juice.

Ummm...no.

I decided tonight that I am in charge of my life and if I want to eat food that has not been pureed, I will.

So, I ate.

And ohhhh...it was good.

I ate ham steak (prepared by Gregg "the grill master" Everhart...hello??! Who can resist anything prepared by the Master???). I ate hummus. I ate pasta salad. I ate sausage.

And I ate ice cream. Rocky Road.

My grandma made chocolate zucchini bread. I've never had chocolate zucchini bread, so how could I not try some?

And then...Jamie came home.

I could have kept it from him...he never would have known.

But, I told him.

It was like repenting.

"I regret it. I really regret it. I'll run on the treadmill. I'll drink the juice. Should I drink some juice now? I won't eat tomorrow. Tell me, what do I do?!"

And Jamie...wise, wise Jamie...says just two words, "Grapefruit juice".

So, there it is ... there's my hail mary, my holy penance of the juice fast ...

I will drink grapefruit juice (apparently it's good for digestion).

And tomorrow...

juice, juice and more juice.

Day Three

So, I almost cracked.

Last night, I was going to eat. No one was stopping me.

I had a meeting but as soon as it was over, I was eating.

Cheeseburger and fries, watch out.

However, the meeting was longer than I expected and by the time it was over, I had to get the girls home for bed.

So, I went home a very sad, disappointed and hungry girl.

I ate a banana.

Today ... I juiced an apple and some watermelon, and mmmmmm, so yummy.

And I was down another pound from yesterday morning.

I can feel the difference already. I don't feel as sluggish. I don't feel like I'm carrying a tire around my waist. I am standing a little taller.

Yesterday I was ready to quit. I was done.

Today, I'm just going to try to make it through the day.

One day at a time ...

Day Two

I'm hungry.

I want pizza.

However, I lost 2 pounds since yesterday morning, so...

no pizza.

But, this is not easy.

It's a constant battle.

I have become 39 separate personalities and each one has a different point of view.

Some give me reasons why I need to continue this insane, stupid fast ... most of them talk about pizza.

And cheeseburgers and fries.

And pepsi. Oh, how I love pepsi.

Pepsi is on sale at CVS today. 88 cents for a 2-litre. That's a good freaking deal.

Stupid healthy eating. Stupid exercise.

Kent Pratt has been quoted as saying, "we're not here for a long time, we're here for a good time".

Hm. Maybe he is on to something.

Of course, he has also been quoted as saying, "I am a baby cow".

Guess it's time for more juice.

Day One

Food.
I love food.
The smells, the presentation on the plate...I don't rush food. I enjoy each bite. I think about lunch before I've decided what to have for breakfast.
I want what I want, when I want it.
My husband has attempted many times to yank the silver spoon from my mouth, but I've got a death grip on that spoon.

"I am going to officially start the fast tomorrow. Today, I need McDonald's. Just one more time."

But, no, instead ... carrots, cucumbers, romaine lettuce and apples.

And it was good. Really good. I thought I might be able to choke it down at best ... but, I liked it. I think I might be able to do this ...

I still want a cheeseburger and french fries.

Today, at 9:00 pm I weighed 143.4.

I did program 4 on the treadmill.

I feel good.